It is said that "you'll never leave where you are, until you decide where you'd rather be."
I couldn't agree more.
It's hard to move on when you have nowhere to go.
Life is full of surprises.
The best things come when you least expect it.
All you need is a little company.
When you find yourself surrounded by friends and laughing until your stomach aches, you'll realize how lucky you are.
I know I did.
This summer is approaching it's end... and there's absolutely no way I'm looking forward to that.
Even though I spent three quarters of the summer being depressed, the last quarter made it all worth the wait, the pain and the misery.
Today was the first day of my third semester.
I was really tired, because I barely slept at all.
For some reason, school stresses me a lot... and when it comes to exams, my mind goes on crazy mode and I get a maximum of two hours of sleep.
Maybe I should start meditating or something.. haha!
Apart from school... life has been treating me well these past days.
Two and a half months ago, I was a total disaster. & less than three weeks ago, I was still a pretty bad mess.
There's a lot more to look forward to in life.
It might seem like you'll never get better... but one day you'll see the light at the end of the tunnel. I promise.
I can honestly say that where I stand right now is where I want to be.
Because he has been a major part of your life, of course you'll miss him, it's perfectly normal. It's like getting your tooth pulled out. After the dentist pulls it out, you're relieved, but how many times does your tongue run itself over the spot where it used to be? Probably countless times a day... Just because it wasn't hurting you, doesn't mean you didn't notice it. It leaves a gap and sometimes you find yourself missing it terribly. It's going to take a while, it takes time. Should you have kept the tooth? No, because it was causing you pain. Pulling the tooth out was the right decision, but it's going to hurt.
So no matter how awful it hurts and how bad your life sucks at times, remember that things happen for a reason.
I can't say that I'm perfectly reestablished myself... but I'm getting there... and I'm almost there (:
