center of their universe.

At some point, you will realize that you have done too much for someone, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone and walk away. It’s not like you’re giving up, and it’s not like you shouldn’t try. It’s just that you have to draw a line between determination and desperation. What is truly yours will eventually be yours, and what isn’t, no matter how hard you try, will never be.

So wait for the person who pursues you, the one who will make an ordinary moment seem magical, the kind of person who brings out the best in you and makes you want to become a better person. Wait for the person who will be your best friend, the only person who will drop everything just to be with you at any time no matter what the circumstances, for the person who makes you smile like no one else and when they smile, you know they need you. Wait for the person who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats and a t-shirt, but appreciates it when you get dressed up for them. And most of all wait for the person who will put you at the center of their universe, because that's where you belong.

goodbye summer.

It is said that "you'll never leave where you are, until you decide where you'd rather be."
I couldn't agree more.
It's hard to move on when you have nowhere to go.

Life is full of surprises.
The best things come when you least expect it.
All you need is a little company.
When you find yourself surrounded by friends and laughing until your stomach aches, you'll realize how lucky you are.
I know I did.

This summer is approaching it's end... and there's absolutely no way I'm looking forward to that.
Even though I spent three quarters of the summer being depressed, the last quarter made it all worth the wait, the pain and the misery.

on the right track.

Today was the first day of my third semester.
I was really tired, because I barely slept at all.
For some reason, school stresses me a lot... and when it comes to exams, my mind goes on crazy mode and I get a maximum of two hours of sleep.
Maybe I should start meditating or something.. haha!

Apart from school... life has been treating me well these past days.
Two and a half months ago, I was a total disaster. & less than three weeks ago, I was still a pretty bad mess.
There's a lot more to look forward to in life.
It might seem like you'll never get better... but one day you'll see the light at the end of the tunnel. I promise.
I can honestly say that where I stand right now is where I want to be.

Because he has been a major part of your life, of course you'll miss him, it's perfectly normal. It's like getting your tooth pulled out. After the dentist pulls it out, you're relieved, but how many times does your tongue run itself over the spot where it used to be? Probably countless times a day... Just because it wasn't hurting you, doesn't mean you didn't notice it. It leaves a gap and sometimes you find yourself missing it terribly. It's going to take a while, it takes time. Should you have kept the tooth? No, because it was causing you pain. Pulling the tooth out was the right decision, but it's going to hurt.
So no matter how awful it hurts and how bad your life sucks at times, remember that things happen for a reason.
I can't say that I'm perfectly reestablished myself... but I'm getting there... and I'm almost there (:

messy.

Love is a funny thing. You expect it to be easy, a world of roses, laughs, happiness & perfect moments, you find only in the movies and novels. You expect him to always say the right thing and always know how you feel, or exactly how to react to it. You expect him to calm you down when you're yelling or chase you when you run away. You expect so much that you feel entirely and utterly defeated when something doesn't match up to your plans. But that's the thing. Love isn't a plan. It doesn't have a certain beginning, it certainly has no end or visible finish line to those deeply in it. Love happens, and it's incredibly messy.

update on the monster.

She's the cutest ball of fur. That's all I can say.

love is a good thing.

Love is always a good thing no matter how much it hurts. Even after it's over, even through the pain, anyone who has ever really loved will tell you that they never regretted a second of it, no matter how much it hurt in the end, and if you tell me differently, I will tell you that you were not truly in love.

-April Nizlek

playing dead.

 Silly bunny.