canadian border.

After school, I went to meet with D and I decided to accompany him to go pick up his friend in Pittsburgh.
Well not exactly in Plattsburgh, but at the border of the country, because we didn't have our passports.

It wasn't that long of a drive... about an hour.
Just as we got there, we received a message from the airport, saying that his friend's flight got delayed.. for two hours and a half -__-''
We were pissed about it at first, because there's absolutely nothing to do there. There's a really sketchy restaurant called "RESTAURANT" and on the other side, there's a Best Western, a camping area and a bistro.
We decided to go eat at the bistro, because the other restaurant looked really ghetto.
It was kind of awkward because we were the only ones there.

So overall, his friend was super late and we waited for a total of 4 hours.
But it's okay, we spent quality time together and it was nice. [:

roses and egg tarts.

A lot of crap happened on Saturday.
I was really bummed about not seeing D this week. At all.
Sometimes I feel like being in my shoes is just pathetic, because all I do is wait. Wait after him to find time for me.
It's like I'm always trying to consider him and by doing so, I forgot about myself.

I got mad yesterday because I realized that it really just wasn't fair for me.
It wasn't fair that I was left alone when he did have the time during the week to maybe come and see me or something, and yet he didn't.
I think this is the first time I'm mad and that I'm actually standing up for myself and not giving in so easily.
I'm trying to be as understanding as I can be, but I can only take so much.

After realizing that I was really upset, he sent me roses today with a note saying "Happy six months and one day."

Sigh. Why does he have to be such a sweetheart.

I was still mad, because even if I was happy that he was thoughtful and caring for sending me flowers, it still didn't change the fact that he wasn't there for me the day before. Okay, yes I know I'm being a bit harsh, but all I wanted was a bit of time from him and instead he just made other plans.

He knew that I was still unhappy, so he passed by and dropped a box at my front door.
5 egg tarts... because he ate one! -____-

 

chocolate overdose.

I always look forward to Fridays, because that's when I get to see my Totoro!
& well... it's the weekend too.
We went to Suite 88 Chocolatier on Sherbrooke street;

It's pretty small, but cozy.
We ordered a waffle with milk chocolate and a hot chocolate milk.
It was okay... but in my opinion, Juliette et Chocolat is better...
Their truffles look really good though... they even had green tea ones!
Too bad we didn't get any. I think we had enough chocolate for one day.

Day after;
After work, we decided to go to Juliette et Chocolat. Yes, you read right! After all the chocolate from the day before, we were still craving for our good old classic crepe.

We went to watch Just Go With It afterwards... and it was pretty good.
Besides all the bad reviews on it, I found it pretty cute and funny.

Can't wait for Rango to come out next week!

 hahahaa.

roses.

So this morning someone rang at my door.
It was the florist!
I wasn't expecting anything, so I was kind of confused.
I took off the paper packaging and saw a card.. dedicated to me.

 

"Im coming home soon! Miss you."

Sweetest thing anyone has ever done for me.

early gifts.

The BF is going to spend Christmas in T.O. ;(
Since he's leaving on the 24th, and I'm stuck at work, he passed by last night to drop off my gift at my door (without me knowing).
Such a sweetheart <3

We're going to open our gifts tonight heheh, I can't wait!

once in a lifetime.

"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colors seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life."

-Bob Marley.

totoro.

Ever got those random depressing moments?
You know, the kind you get when everyone is having a good time around you, and suddenly you just freeze and realize how miserable you are.
At times I wonder, "aren't I supposed to be happy?", I have everything I've ever wished for and more in the palm of my hands.
Some people tell me that it's perfectly normal, and some tell me to stop being pathetic and move on.
Well I have moved on, but don't they get the fact it's always going to hurt in someway?
'Cause in the end, it just hurts all the same, no?
 
I want to smile, I want to laugh. He's been pulling me down for way too long and I know now that it's time to let go of him completely. It's time I stop worrying about him and his precious little life; it's time I put myself first for a change. It's time I treat myself right and leave behind those who don't. It's time I dig myself out of this hole and start all over again with someone who just might be willing to give me the chance that he never did.

And that someone is my Totoro (:

I know, the picture quality is really bad, and it's grey and bla bla bla.
Too bad it's the only picture I have for now lol.

Thank you for being there when I really needed a shoulder to cry on.
Thank you for making me see the better things in life.
Thank you for loving me. ♥